I can’t sleep.
I am creating this blog entry to explain if I suddenly drop dead from exhaustion. I have always been nocturnal, but this is different. Usual sleeping time during vacations is 2 am; however, ever since that incident with my mom, sleeping time became 4 if I’m lucky. 6 am if I’m exceptionally unfortunate.
The last time I tried sleeping early ended terribly. I got into a fight with my mom and ever since, I feared sleeping early because it might repeat last week’s events. I am afraid that this time, no boundaries will be upheld as we fight each other to “death”. She would not stop at anything to hurt me if I answer back again. Scary right? It is even more scary that the next fight could actually break off this family altogether.
I never wanna see that. Thus, best solution right now is to stay awake like a zombie. I am not exactly doing anything productive right now- mostly watching videos and the like. This is better than staying up late thinking while just lying on the bed.
I shall sleep again when I’m exhausted.
If it’s time to die, everything is in this blog. Or the tumblr one.
Dear sister I hope you’re reading this, you’ll know how to manipulate everything 🙂
Just in case.
P.S. I am not suicidal!!